Soldiering On - Why It Matters and When to Quit

So I've been out of this for over a month now. I will make no apologies for it. I could make excuses of work being really busy, or being overwhelmed with everything in my life at the moment, but that would be pointless.

I love writing. I love being able to have my voice heard - which, when you have as much trouble speaking as I do, is a huge thing. When I speak, I have to stop in the middle of sentences to find the right word to say what's on my mind. This gets very irritating, not only to the people I'm talking to, but to myself as well.

I don't have to worry about that when I'm writing. I have time to think about what's about to come out. I can go back and edit should I choose to, and nobody will ever be the wiser that I just had retype the word 'just' three times before it was correct.

Which brings me to the point of this week's posting. I stopped for a month. Why come back at all? How do I know it was even missed by anyone?

Well, aside from the intermittent updates saying someone is visiting this blog's website (for reasons unknown to me), I missed writing it.

Which begs the question of why did I go on a hiatus for so long with no explanation? The truth is, I didn't feel as though I had anything worthwhile to say. Even on Harry Potter's birthday, the post I had started to work on for it felt forced, so I abandoned it. Maybe I'll come back to that topic in the future, perhaps when Lily and Hugo start school next year. Who knows?

So why does it matter that I keep this going? Because I want to. Nobody's opinion but mine is influential in this decision. I welcome feedback and critiques, and I appreciate all the support that I get. But when it comes to whether or not I keep writing and pursuing my goal of being a published author, that's on me as long as I desire it.

And yes, passions change. I don't know if I'll want to continue writing in a year, or ten years, or even in just ten minutes. (Spoiler alert: I'll be writing farther than just ten minutes into the future.)

For the foreseeable future, though, you'll continue to see posts from me, be they flash fiction, or just little blurbs of insight into my psyche. I pray that this mind of mine remains horribly unbound.

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A couple of announcements, if you don't mind me spilling on some things I am excited about. First, I paid off my student loan a couple weeks ago, and thus a huge weight has lifted from my shoulders. Second, my fiance and I have officially set a date for our wedding, as well as booked our venue, photographer, caterer, and DJ!

For next week, I ask you to name one thing you wish your cell phone could do that it currently does not.